I often seem to say the wrong thing or too much. Put my foot in it you might say. Sometimes everyone does this, but I find myself doing this rather a lot. Part of the reason could be my autism, but I am not always able to tell what is due to my autism and what is a mistake most people could make.
I am told I can be very blunt, meaning I simply say what I think without social niceties. I do not see why I should not say things as they are; it seems pointless to pretend otherwise to me. Although obviously even I can tell certain situations require subtlety. I can often tell when others are using social niceties and most of the time I do not mind, but sometimes I would prefer a straight answer. I think people can mistake my bluntness for deliberate rudeness which can be annoying. I tend to get this from people who know me less well.
I am also told I talk way too much at times. There are times I could of stopped talking about an issue a few sentences back and may have gotten away with not saying the wrong thing if I had stopped talking about it sooner. However I can struggle to tell if I am over discussing a topic sometimes. I may also bore people with my long rambles on an issue they are not so interested in. I have this urge to get all my thoughts out on a topic to someone at times. I feel like I may burst if I do not say it. Part of it could be I over think a lot of things to the point my mind feels full and I simply have to unload. A bit like some of my blog posts I suppose. I do find writing about a topic helpful.
I find certain social situations harder than others to know what or how much I should say. I find situations I have experienced less often harder. Practise has helped me get better in a lot of situations. I think I am getting better at chatting in pubs, cafes and at family dinners, although not always exactly getting it right. I find certain people easier to chat with as I know what I can get away with saying with them. Family members and friends I see more regularly are easier on the whole, but people I see less often and new folk can be harder. I often end up being way too blunt for them or talking so much they get annoyed or walk away.
Social media is often easier for me. I enjoy chatting online, but sarcastic comments can be lost on me, although I get the very obvious ones. Without facial expression or voice tone sarcasm can be tricky for anyone. I also find some people who do not know me can be offended by my comments. Bluntness strikes again! I try to make my comments not appear rude, but now and then some people just take them the wrong way. In these situations I often stop responding to them as it is not worth an argument. Although I have occasionally purposefully been rude back to show them that their comments are wrong or unhelpful or just me getting annoyed, then I step away from it. I have found that turning off comment notifications can be helpful.
I try to remember to think before I speak in certain situations. However I find this tricky when I get onto certain topics I am very passionate about or in a heated debate. I guess that this could be common for a lot of people though when things get heated people say things in the moment.
Another thing that has been pointed out to me is that my voice can get monotonous, although I like to think my background in drama has helped make it less so over the years. I certainly think my speech was less varied as a child, which must have become tedious to listen to after a while for some people. I can become monotonous again now when rambling, but having been made aware I do this I often try to not allow it to happen too much. In drama classes we learnt about inflection and emphasizing certain words which was useful for me. I feel drama has a lot skills high functioning autistics could find helpful and taking a few classes would be beneficial for a lot of autistic people.
What I find annoying is when people stereotype how they think I will be in social situations. Firstly I actually enjoy socialising which surprises some people who think autistics all enjoy being left alone on their own all the time. Sure I need alone time, everyone does, but too much alone time makes me feel lonely. Plus my OCD and other anxieties can get worse if I spend too long alone with my own thoughts. Secondly I do go to pubs and drink alcohol. (OK I spent nine months last year t-total, but that was not me avoiding alcohol for autistic reasons, that was a whole other thing you can read about in a previous post should you wish.) I am not a heavy drinker and can go for weeks at a time not drinking, but I have been drunk before more than once and may well be drunk again. There is often an assumption that autistics cannot stand booze and find pubs too noisy, which although often true, is not always the case. I have heard that autistic people have no sense of humour. Wrong! I do take a lot of things more seriously than some people, maybe too seriously at times, but I certainly enjoy a laugh. Not only do I like many sit-coms, comedy films and stand –up comedians, I can enjoy laughing in a social setting with friends. I can see the funny side of drunken mishaps and can laugh when friends recount amusing stories. As for the autistic people are introvert and quite thing and do not talk unless directly spoken to or even are totally mute, well this could not be further from the truth in my case. As I wrote earlier I am more likely to over talk and say too much. Also I will talk to people who have not directly spoken specifically to me, but more generally to everyone in a room.
Autism is not an excuse to be deliberately rude to someone and it is not an excuse to take over a conversation and have the most say about an issue, but it can mean someone may not know they are doing this. Sometimes it helps if other people around them give them some understanding and do not just assume they are being rude. It can help if people point out what they are doing, although with tact and quietly not in front of everyone, if an appropriate moment comes up to do so